Hi 👋 , me again. My mood is much better today. And I’m alright in general.

So after yesterday’s shit show, with the doctors and them not making any communication or adjustment for my needs ( ie ASD/ ADHD ). I did finally exploded after keeping it in for so long since 2017 ( and well before than ) 2011 when I moved here.

I let it out in a healthy way to my fantastic OT. And just got it all of my chest to how my doctors have treated me and being ableist to me. But what really threw me over the edge yesterday was the constant lies ( ie from the receptionist to the doctors).

You know I was waiting for that said phone call from the doctor ( which the first receptionist said he would phone me ) turns out it was a lie. And I waited till 7 in the morning yesterday ( wasted half my day waiting for this supposed phone call ) up till 12 in the afternoon. To be told oh no she left a note to him. This is what I sodding mean in communicating and there bullshit lies. So when I phoned up again just after 12 ish to ask why has the doctor not phoned me about explaining my CT scan I get oh no. Last receptionist left note. But he said I need to be examined by a female doctor. So I’ve got to go all though this again. I’ve had this pain ( lump / mass ) 1 year now. And it got rejected due to the doctor I first saw Nov 29th 2021. Never put enough evidence and my record. So they rejected it for that reason ( so it was his fault) being lazy about it.

And when the receptionist ( i spoke to said this about i need to be re examined again. She like you still having the abdominal pain. Erm yes. So yet again I’m having to go though this all over. And hopefully I won’t get fobbed off and they give me another CT scan.

I had a complete meltdown yesterday. Because of how they have handle it and me as an autistic person. And how they can’t correspond to one another or even just give me a courtesy call or inform me of anything. So the other part was that due to having enough and biting my tongue for so long..I went on goggle reviews and gave them a piece of my mind. And said how I’ve been treated and the ableism and also endure from them. And how they are lacking communication with me and not adjusting to my needs as an autistic person and keeping me in the dark.

It was long winded but I just could not take it anymore. And I put my feelings out there. And no I don’t regret it. I’m honest and no one i mean no be that a hidden disabilities or non hidden disabilities. We all matter and we deserve adjustments.

It was also the ball ache of getting my meds as well, when it was signed off via my psychiatrist and OT I could up my meds when they ware off. But even that small simple thing is hard for them. And they create stress for me or give me stress. Ie choosing to ignore the medical request or not bothering to look at it. Than it means me working up to phone them to say this. And sometimes that’s ignored too. And when I turn up..they hate it. Oh you don’t have appointment so you can’t be here. Well maybe if you did what I asked I would not be here in the first place. Just do what the medical request note says. And it be fine. But they can’t even do that and they make big thing about it.

So upon lying yesterday with the first receptionist than with the whole CT scan thing and no one telling me anything ( like I’m a mind reader). I just lost it. But I told my OT I had enough of the doctors and how they can’t communicate with me. Or keep in the loop. Or how they need to sort it out and between the doctor and receptionist ( the bullshit of lies need to stop) stop saying one thing to me & than doing another. I get the brunt of it and i don’t want it.

My OT did get back to me late lastnight ( bless her ) and she is phoning me Monday) and hopefully between me and her we can sort the shit show of the doctors out and they can make adjustments for me. I told her I can’t take it anymore and I’ve had enough. And I can’t cope being treated so badly by my surgery anymore.

I don’t ask for much or the world I just wanted to be treated nicely and with a bit of dignity and some compassion & not ableism. I really don’t need the stress or it created for me. I don’t deal well with it.

Anyway i thought I keep you in the loop and let you know how I’m doing

Peace & love me 🖤