Hi me again , your favorite blogger, I just want a general chat with ma fellow bloggers/ readers and followers

I have talked to you about me and buddhism ☸. But let me info dump, something else. I’ve been told by many , that me being a very open book helps others ( not bragging rights ) I’ve been told how I am not judgmental of others. ( I take you for you ) even if you have a disability of any kind. I see you as the person not for your disability. Its human nature to have flaws and errors. And we are not perfect no one is . I have fucked up a lot in my past and done things. I will admit that I am wrong and hold my hands up.

Me coming across blunt some will like it. Some will not. But I’m not here to sugar-coat it and make it seem like its a band aid. I can’t lie to your face and I won’t.

As much as these are wonderful things I’ve got burnt many times. But over the years of working on me in all manners and aspects of it. I have de attached myself from others who come across negative or give me them vibes. I keep some people at arms length because there a drain on me. When I want to improve myself everyday.

For me I like authenticity of people. Despite your flaws. Everyone has a past and we all have mental health. I am not here to fix you or change you. Not about that at all. Healing is all I wish for you and happiness.

I’ve met many great people from all walks a life. People have also said. That I just have one of those faces. People come to me for advice and no I don’t have all them answers and I don’t have a magic wand. But me being there for that person counts and means more than anything to what that one person is going though. I can never experience what they are going though because all mental health and disability differs.

Not ever having mold myself to ones society and actually being me for once . Ie being sober one year. Doing fitness for me and my adhd. And just in all the wellbeing for me. I don’t want to fit in a substandard. Because society tells me to or you have to be deemed normal. Normal or substandard I will never be and don’t want.

My thoughts of things are different having my re wired brain is a good thing because there so much I could have thought before. The ideas I have. I value someone opinions and in depth thoughts. It fires my brain. There are the downside to being neurological and its the meltdowns and the sensory etc. But that’s also part and parcel of my asd / adhd.

Like I said for once in my life I am at peace with me. And I don’t care about what people say or think about me. You go though life of people judging you. And its down to there own insecurities. That is not my problem. If you don’t like who you are or where your at change it. I did taken me 4/5 years and I am still going.

The thing for me is . When I care about anyone and we are close you become part of my circle and than you become a priority.

I think life does challenge us in many ways and it makes you think. Like the monk who told me about the cause and effect theists.

I got this mindset by training it. Coming out of a horrific abusive relationship, made me think on another level. I never want to be in that position again. And i am not going to be ever again. I like being single and happy focusing on me, my small circle. And doing what is best for me.

I don’t need another person to complete me ( I am whole by myself ) being ace , I don’t crave or desire sex. I am very platonic with both genders.

Still find it hard to process when people say I am interesting but that’s down to trauma based ptsd and ma childhood of being a loner for 6 years and bullied.

That’s another blog for another time thanks for listening.