So as you know I was on the phone to my O.T the other day when she explained my anger outbursts . But also she explained my score from the 1st part of the adhd assessment.

90% is very very likely I have adhd ( but we don’t know which type) as I’m waiting on part 2 , 3rd March. So the psychologicalist can tell me which I have..

But getting back to my O.T phone call and how she explained that the 90% was a huge in your face indication of me having it. So yes I have it . But I need that dude ( psychologicalist ) to tell me that and which one too. Either i have combined type or one or the other ( tis in other blog post on what I mean )

But I feel I have combined type.. and I feel 99% his going to say that I have this type. But at the time when adhd was seen in boys .. not girls. I went off the radar and i was branded the naughty child. My education suffered and so did myself in employment going from job to job . Same with hobbies. And I always thought. Oh maybe its me exploring me and wanting to do different things.. but no my lack of contraction and focus I could not stick to one thing.

The only thing I did manage was modelling for 4 years. Till I threw in the towel.

Question? Do I want to be medicated when this is told to me on the 3rd of March and everything is set in stone. The answer is yes.. I want to learn my native language of gaelic and when I did used to study on dulingo . I only managed 3 mins of it before I could not focus and get bored . Same with books etc. I want to be medicated for many reasons..not just these.

I feel I would benefit from it . I know its trial and error with these medications and I’m willing to go though that if it means I get a better sort of life if that makes sense ?

For once i want to complete a language . I want to finished a book. And other great things.

Medication is not forced. And it does not work for everyone. I will say that. But its upto you. If you want to.

If I am given this choice I will take it. I can’t comment on what its like for others or how they feel or go though it because we are a spectrum and we are all different and having adhd is a chemical imbalance and everyone’s brain will react to it different.

I just want part 2 this assessment to come now . But O.T said he has to go though what I have told him in part one ..the score basis. My school reports and the questionnaire my pal answered about me . As an adult now as she has known me 3 years.

Also he has to tick everything off to see its not nothing else. ( which could be anything )

Anyhoo I leave you with this.

Until the 3rd of March I will be back here blogging the outcome. If I can remember all what was is /said.

If not snippets.

Toodles 👋