So I found something out today that really explained everything for me.

My O.T phone me on my ADHD score and said I got 90% , meaning I am likely to have ADHD . But I am awaiting second part. As my psychologicalist has to gather the evidence ie my school reports . A questionnaire my friend Kate did and the actual score . But my OT said its very very likely I have Adhd . But the evidence gathering is for what type of adhd I have.

Moving on to.. what I said up there. All my life I have been angry. I mean in temper. Having a short fuse, and flying off the handle. I went to anger management. For 1 year.

But my OT opened my eyes to a sensory ladder ..its hard to explain but its you on having a adhd brain. She told my I was never angry it was due to having adhd . Yes its a mix of both. But when my Brain goes into 0- 100 is because of how my sensory ladder works. And thats why we have shutdown/ meltdown .. and when I do have medication for the adhd . I won’t have an outburst the way I do. As the medication works as a simulater for everything and the chemicals in my brain.

For someone like myself of 34 years I also thought I was angry and I hated that side of me. Because I didn’t like how nasty I became and I just flip at any little thing.

Its open my eyes the way she explained it to me and that I can’t control it like the focusing part etc. And this is what these medications do.

I was never angry i just could not control what my brain was going though.

It amazes me how are ASD / ADHD brain works.

Feeling a lot more happier I know that and now I want part 2 of ADHD diagnosis so I can get my medication also.

Anyway thought I vent that out today ..

See you again for part 2 of ADHD