Good afternoon…. I’m writing from my bed heated blanket on and the cats by me .

This morning I had a panic attack . started when I got on the bus. I shake I tremble and I look like I’m a alcoholic because I also rock backwards and forwards. But on the bus it was shaking . By the time I got to my destination . I had to run into greggs get a sugary drink and food .

Believe it or not lucozade has helped me with sensory overloads , panic attacks and meltdowns . Finally after queuing I sat down and I was still shaking this went for 35mins . I was getting stares . Because I’ve got my headphones in trying to eat while shaking like fuck . Its not easy ..

And why do people insist on talking to me with headphones in and doing breathing techniques . I’m not one to say hey help or say btw I’m autistic . I’m just not built like that . Not about pride. I’ve just been looking after me since I was 16 and that’s all i have known.

Sensory overload is where everything like noise people crowds . Where it gets all too much . Than you have the meltdowns and you just want hide from the world and be a dinosaur and extinct.

I’m exhausted after today’s panic attack . Sometimes I sleep it off and I feel better .

Anyway I’m alright now that I’m home in my safe zone with the cats

Happiness is at home